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I’m trying to get my thoughts together.  I feel like I’ve been talking a lot, but still can’t put my thoughts into something I can easily understand.  This feeling is frustrating.  I don’t know what I’m looking for.  The only thing constant in the last few days is this feeling of needing to be alone.  I don’t want to be around the same people I’m around all the time-even the people I’m just always thinking about being around.  And the feeling I can never seem to shake-the feeling of wanting to move.  Again.  I’m not going back to FL, only lazy people live in the southeast.  l know people up and down the east coast, but it’s not where I want to go.  I realize that people are always wanting to be somewhere else.  The idea of a “paradise” of just not wanting to be where you are at right now-that there must be something better somewhere else.  And if you were in this idea of paradise, you’d realize it’s exactly the same as what you are living now.  I understand this idea and that things don’t change just because you move.  It’s not that I want things to change, really, I’m just fucking bored.  I just want to see something different, meet new people, figure out new cities and neighborhoods.  

With all that said, last night was really fun.  Alex is my new favorite person.  I love him.  We all went to the Pill.  I crashed on the couch at 3a.  After work tonight, Alex and I had a “nite in” and watched a really trashy movie with Anne Hathaway pre-Devil…Prada.  Who knew she liked to show her boobs so much?  I’ll never look at her the same way…  Anyways, weather permitting, we are heading to the beach on Wednesday.  I hope it will be nice.

My sister went back to Maine this morning.  She’s looking good.  I guess she’s about 6.5 months along now.  I felt the baby kick a few times.  That was pretty neat, I guess.  I took her to breakfast at Pour House and shopping a few days ago.  She bought a cute top from a store I used to work at, Petit Bateau.  And one of those tiny baby hats from AA.  She also bought a lot of stuff with the words Boston, Red Sox and Irish on them.  Seriously, I will never have kids.  (or pets for that matter).  Took her to breakfast at Cafe Pompei around the corner and we walked around the city taking photos.

Ant and I went to a park over in S. Boston yesterday.  It was a nice day.  Took photos and ate Puerto Rican food from Miami Cafe afterwards.  

Ant and I made killer scallops last night for Kristina and Rob.  

Last Sunday, Rob’s mom took us out for his birthday dinner.  Went to Maggiano’s.  I got linguine and clams.  It was good.

Here’s a post about last Friday that I guess I forgot to hit the publish button on:

Yesterday was lots of fun! Sterling rented a Zipcar and Ant and I met up with him and Rob around 3p. We drove to Richardson’s, which is a place where they have mini-golf, ice cream, and batting cages. Somehow, we got lost driving up 93 (trying to avoid traffic) and didn’t get there until about 2 hrs later. Heidi and Tim were already there. When we got there, we were starved, so we ate hot dogs. Then played a round of golf. I came in 3rd out of 5 people. Rob won. Then we went over to the batting cages. I haven’t been to batting cages since I played softball when I was young. One of the machines was broken, or something, and just kept pitching balls. So it lasted a long time. It was so fun. Afterwards, we got ice cream and went home.

Photos from Kristina’s visit:

ps. See what happens when I use photobucket to host my photos? UGH Only 5 more days till I can use my flickr acct again. I should just buy a pro acct already!

Yesterday was Rob’s birthday. I got him a model sailboat. I hate that I cut off the top of it in the photo. He’s also getting a record too, but I have yet to receive it.
Bought this in Philly at Guacamole:

New Shorebirds split 7″ is in the mail!! Wish the ep would come back in stock. ugh!

Here are photos to accompany my last post:
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Jer’s back yard

Jer’s birthday dinner 

Boston Gay Pride Parade:
More to come!!

So much has happened in the last week!  

Gay Pride Parade last Saturday.  Went with my friend Alex.  I took +130 photos!  It was so much fun.  We walked alongside the parade and ended up in Gov’t Center, where we walked through all of the booths and picked up free information about each organization.  Then we walked over to Faneuil Hall where Alex decided against Wagamama’s for some french fries.  So we went to cheers, had some beers and burgers (though his was a veggie and mine was a chicken).  The food was actually pretty good.  Afterwards, we walked around then went over to my house.  

Later, I met up with Patrick to say bye :(  We went to Pinnochio’s then Berry Line.  Then back to his place to carry all of his stuff his whole life to the bus station.  The bags were really heavy, but I didn’t mind.  Plus we were taking a cab.  I waited with him until his 12a bus to Philly via NY came, said bye, hug! then went home.  

Sunday-Wednesday:  Deja Vu.  Had fun.  Took Photos.  Ate a WAWA pepperoni and cheese bagel sandwich, drank WAWA raspberry flavored iced tea. Bought 3 boxes of different kinds of tastykakes.  BEACH.  South St.  Jer.  BECOMING AN ORGANIC FARMER, for real this time.  Jay, Danielle, Pat, Kevin, Chris and Singapore.  

Yesterday Ant and I hung out all day. We drove over to the Cambridge Antique Market over by Lechmere to buy Jer a present for his birthday on Sunday. I also saw a few things to pick from for Ant and Rob’s bdays. UGH. Too many summer birthdays! But I found the best gift for Rob. I’m going to go back to the market next week to pick it up; I’m hoping it will still be there.
After that, headed over to Brookline for Anna’s.
Around 6p, we went to the Midway Cafe in JP for Ringers. After paying and standing around for maybe 20 mins, we overheard some kids talking and heard “sucks Ringers couldn’t make it,” so we got our money back and left. Later on, I went to the Pants Yell! show at PA’s. That was fun. Met Rob up there. Hung with our future roomies, then left after PY!.

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Every Sunday morning (when I am off from work) I have gotten in the habit of watching The CBS Sunday Morning Show, Meet The Press and Urban Update.  I’ve been doing this for almost two years, as I’ve gotten more and more into politics.  Every Sunday morning I look forward to seeing Tim Russert on Meet The Press the most.  I just love his interviewing style and his obvious passion for politics.  His face is just so familiar.  I am so saddened to hear the news that he has died today.  I’m so sad I won’t be seeing him on Meet the Press anymore.  Here is the story.

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Last night Ant and I went to the Bridge and Tunnel/Attica! Attica! show.  It was at some kids’ house (basement), which they’ve aptly titled the Brocery Store.  I think I may even have seen a tagged, broken-down fridge in the back yard.  The show was fun.  The bands were just great!  Attica! Attica! played as an acoustic duo.  The singer sang his heart out, and had an amazing voice, surprisingly.  I always like when the first time I hear a band is at their show, and they blow me away so much that I have to buy a record.  It was so good.  They opened with a song about Guantanamo Bay.  I knew I was going to like them.  Then the singer told a little anecdote about his mother taking him to a Women’s Conference in DC.  And he mentioned to everyone about women’s reproductive rights and about how important it is to have a president who will elect justices to the supreme court who will not overturn RvW.  I almost teared up.  I liked his story, and I really liked that he told it.  It just makes me feel so good that there are guys in bands writing these songs and talking about these issues.  It just means so much.  

Here are some photos of B&T:

 I really liked how the 3 mics were set up.

I wish I would have taken photos of Attica! Attica!, I just didn’t know I was going to like them so much!  I bought one of their cds though.  I can’t say when the last time I actually bought a band’s cd was.  But they don’t have this cd in vinyl version yet.  There was a really nice picture-disk 10″, a 4-way split with other bands I’ve never heard, I would have loved to buy, but didn’t have enough money for both.  And no B&T lp yet.

After the show, we went to Pinnochio’s for pizza.

I have the hardest time letting things/people go.  I’m really trying to not live in the past all of the time.  I have to keep telling myself that the past doesn’t really exist.  But what does that mean for what I’ve experienced?  Just forget about it?  I don’t really know what I was expecting.  It’s not like people get up and move just because you want them to.  Even if you NEED them to.  Even if you want it because you know it’d be best for them.  But I guess I don’t really know what’s actually best for someone that is not me.  I just don’t know how to give up on someone even if they are telling me to give up.  I know I have to focus on what’s going on in my life RIGHT NOW, but it’s so hard not to dwell on the fun things we did or wonder about what could have been.  

I guess I could be happy that I even got a response.  Maybe closure is good.

Yesterday Rob and I walked along the waterfront area.  We started over by the aquarium and walked over to the Children’s Museum.  It was so hot and humid outside, however it’s just as hot and humid inside our apartment.  And there was a really nice breeze by the water.  Rob told me he had a surprise for me!  So we walked all the way to the Children’s Museum, where there is a gigantic Hood Milk bottle/building.  When we got closer to it, I realized it was an ice cream stand!!  It was a great surprise.  

 We sat over there for a while, then walked to the City Sports in Downtown Xing.  I finally bought a baseball mitt!!  (I almost bought a Celtics tee as well…)  Then we walked home.  

We had planned to go see a movie (Reprise) later at Kendall, but when we got home, we grew lazy because of the heat.  We sat by the fan in the window reading (in the same chair, I wish I had a photo of that), and watched the game.  And I finished Hardcore Zen, but I think I’m going to read it again.  I have a tendency to forget books I’ve read right away; I want this one to kind of stick with me for a while.  

Last night Ant, Rob, and I went to First Friday in the South End.  It was alright.  There were just so many people there, it was hard to get around everyone.  Met Ant’s friend Traverse.  That was really nice since I’ve heard a lot about him.  Afterwards, drove around South End looking for parking to sit in Delux, but couldn’t find a spot.  Rob was hungry, and I wanted a frosty beverage.  But Rob couldn’t decide where else to go.  So we went home.  It wasn’t even 8:00p yet.  When I got home, I felt really car sick from driving around, and I stretched out on the couch and basically went to bed.  I felt bad bailing on Ant and the Pill, but it’s so hard to feel motivated to go out when it’s just him and me every time.  People don’t even get back to me about going out or not.  It’s really disheartening.

So yesterday, Patrick met me at work when I got off at 2:30p. We went to my house first, to show off my great apt, then ate at Pizzeria Regina’s.

Patrick told me a while ago that he wanted to take the blue line out to Wonderland to see what is there. A friend told him it was just a giant parking lot. I had never been there before, so i went with. When we got there, it was a giant parking lot. But we decided to venture beyond the parked cars to see what else could be out there. Then we noticed the beach across the street!! I didn’t realize we were basically in Revere Beach. Actually, Revere Beach is the stop before Wonderland on the blue line, I just didn’t put those hints together I guess. It was a really nice day. The best photos are the couple of polaroids we took, but those will have to wait.
It was really neat to see planes flying so close to the ground over the beach.

Later, Rob, Ant, Patrick, and I went to Sacco’s for candlepin bowling. We had fun.
 I made a bunch of videos while bowling and at the beach.  I probably won’t post those.
Afterwards, pizza at Pinnochio’s.

Today is my dad’s birthday. He’s 50. I can’t believe it.

I’m not entirely sure what I am doing today, but Patrick is meeting me at work when I get off so we can hang. One thing I REALLY need to do is get a new Ipod. ARGGG. The other day, I was putting my Ipod on in the kitchen, and I went to turn it on, I don’t know how, but I dropped it. I thought it would be okay, because I’ve dropped it before, I just turn it off then turn it back on. But this time, instead of turning back on, I got the sad Ipod face. It HAS been acting up lately. I think it’s time for a new one. So, I’ve decided to get an Ipod Nano. They start at $149 for the 4GB and $199 for the 8GB. I really want a Red one. Partly b/c I like that part of the money goes to the Global Fund for Aids medication, and partly b/c I love red. You can read more about that here.

On Sunday night, Patrick and I went to Cactus Club for margaritas. I almost forgot how delicious margaritas are there. I want to spend my whole summer at Cactus Club.
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It’s really hard to not have a twinge of selfishness when I think about Patrick moving back to Denver. I feel like we’ve become pretty close in the few weeks we’ve known each other. And I just don’t want that to end already. When I think about it, the only close friend I have, besides my bf, is Ant. Everyone else is really not more than an acquaintance anymore. I understand why he is moving back, and if I were him, I would too. And I really want him to be happy and think his reasons for moving back are honorable even if the decision was easy. I just hope that we can really keep in touch. I don’t know. This friendship, if I can really call it that, has just really affected me. Sometimes it’s just nice to find I can still be affected by people. Thanks.

My new place: